To Prague and Beyond

that was a mean ass post, but i felt it. Maybe I could have a little been nicer to her. I find it annoying when people jsut fake the funk. I don’t take it back because its how she made me feel. feelings are much different than accuracy. I wish I could write my blog for myself and for others who feel just as I do, cause thats who its for. No one who disagrees with me will get anything out of it, so you might as well stay the FUCK AWAY.

I JUST DROPPED THE F BOMB

I MUST BE REAL MAD TONIGHT

NAH IM GOOD

Tonight I thought about the things I wanted to write. Ugh I know I’LL have no interest in writing them tomorrow, but hopefully I do, because its some mean rude shit, but it needs to be said and I’m not holding my breath, but I will start one post tonight because this has been going on long enough

That’s it. I think I’m going to skip getting my paralegal certificate for a bit, do an internship this summer, maybe try one on the Spring, but if I can hop to Europe, I may. I know I shouldn’t be thinking about going back for all the superficial reasons like men, men and more men, but I am. A part from that, I’d like to visit Europe because I know too many times already I find myself thinking, wow why wasn’t I a little bit more free and open. Yes, this came after browsing on facebook and coming across a friends facebook profile. I met him in Prague and he isn’t normally physically attractive but he thought I was so beautiful and I liked that he was European and then maybe a few days later, I found out he had a girlfriend and I was like OH COOL ! But I sort of got over it, which is sort of strange for me, that’s one thing that I find that I cant do, date a guy who has a girlfriend or any type of complication, just not my thing. It’s not worth it, find more fishies, but this b!tch just seemed so irrelevant to me, but sometimes I think, I wonder if she knows. I never realized that I danced and drank through the wee morning with a guy with a girlfriend. How I found is out is not important. I have a hunch for these things. I can admit that I never hung out with him after I found out he had a girlfriend, but I still wanted to see him, walk around Prague with him and see the town, but I’m glad that I didn’t. I sometimes think about him though, like today

There’s so much I want to tell you and I will once I get everything settled

I would love for this summer to be filled with great books about love, poverty, war , international relations and affairs, geopolitics with a bottle of wine every now and then. Along with that, I’d love to be doing some volunteering here and there and getting some real work experience as a paralegal. I’d love to have the comfort of a bedroom without any distractions but I know that’s not possible. I wish now than ever that I would have saved up enough money to take my summer off. Just to relax and figure things out. I always laughed at people who wanted to find themselves and I understand. I don’t know if I want to travel the world for a year or TWO. I know I want to work for a campaign until November, although lately, I’ve learned that my political views are evolving so rapidly that I probably do not belong to any party. And eventually I probably will in 3 or 4 years. I guess I can say its not that I’m not a Democrat because I am, it just has more to do with not agreeing with all their economic policies and possibly seeing how both their policies along with Republican policies are failing our country. We do need a third party but not the Libertarian party….So we will see how summer goes